questions ???

Even now, I can still hear your sweet voice, every time I close my eyes.

it reminds me the emptiness I felt when you walked away.

You just walked away with no words.

I just locked myself in my room,

Bugging myself with the questions:

“WHAT DID I DO THAT MADE YOU WALK AWAY?”…

“WHY DID I LET MYSELF FALL FOR YOU ?”…

“IF ONLY…”

Feb. 8,2012_10:25 a.m

Never Be Mine

I prayed for you to be mine.

I cried for you to be mine.

I beg for you to be mine.

I dreamed for you to be mine.

I thought there will be You & Me.

But I guess everything is just a THOUGHT.

Seeing you again,

feels like I was in my 6th grade.

I prayed to God that,

I want you to be the ONE

But something struck me,

that I realize that I was just closing my eyes

from the reality that you will

NEVER BE MINE.

How I wish that in every

"I LOVE YOU" you'll uttered is TRUE.

That there's no "I LOVE YOU" .......

"AS A FRIEND".

How I wish you were in my position ...

You seduced me with your sweet words & voice

But sadly, when I turned around to look at you,

your not there anymore.

How I wish you saw the broken pieces inside me when you said,

"IT'S BETTER TO BE FRIENDS THAN TO BE LOVERS."

How it tore me inside. Because I was expecting too much from you.

There will be No YOU & ME

'coz you were just a dream that will NEVER BE MINE ;(

Feb. 4, 2012

10:02 pm

You Came In

Leaving him is my decision,

staying with you is my choice.

And I never thought that I would be 

happy like this.

I kept my smiles in a box but

you break in and let it burst out in me.

I want to keep you FOREVER

'coz I love having you around.

My Nova

From the day I saw you

I already knew;

Your the Angel sent from above 

Watching you as you dance in the room 

I know I'm the luckiest girl in the world.

Your luminous as you are ...

There was something inside of you

Something I thought I never find ...

Your my personal flavor of

NOVA ! 

Falling In Love

To be in love or to fall in love is like your flying in the air always, isn’t it? If people fall in love the qualifications or the standards they’ve been looking for fades away simply because they fall in love, and this is common in all the girls who fall in love. And, you can’t stop yourself from falling for someone either you like him or not.

There once a college girl, who falls in love to a tall, dark but not that handsome guy in their school. At first, the girl didn't really like the guy because of its poker face, she really thinks that the guy don’t know how to laugh or even smile.
At first, the guy didn't bother to pay attention to the girl’s reaction, every time they see each other in the hall way or every where in their school. Because the guy really focus to his volleyball career, but the girl wants to make the first move to make friends with the guy, so she finds way to get the number of the guy or meet him in person.
  After she get the number of the guy, she immediately texted him. After a week of communicating, the guy courted her and without any doubts she said yes to him. In every relationship there’s an up’s and down’s of the couple, sometimes you need to sacrifice something just to keep the relationship alive. If you truly love your partner, you need to sacrifice something because you knew it was worth sacrificing for. 
The girl sacrifices her own happiness just to be with the guy. She doesn't even bother to stop and listen, to what others says about her being with the guy because all she knew was she love him without a second thought. She even meet the family of the guy, the cousins, aunts and uncles, she even spends her entire day on the house of the guy just talking whole day to his mother. 
After being together for two years, she already experience the down falls of their relationship, and the hardest part of it, is that she’s the only person who’s trying to keep their relationship alive. For two years, the guy got another affair with the other girl in the same school. But, the girl still loves him despite of the fact, that he once cheated on her and she lowered her pride to be with him and gave him another chance. There were promises made by him leaved broken . 
Not until, someone came to her life, from that moment she realize that she missed the fun she supposed to experience when she first step in her college. That someone made her realize that nothing was more important than herself. Even the simplest advice she can give to her friends was the hardest thing for her to follow. Her mind wants to give up everything she has with that guy, but her heart still holds on to him. It’s not that easy to forget the person you love for almost two years, but after realizing that she had given everything she had, but still the guy fail to give the love she deserves.
So, the girl decided to leave the guy for good. It really hurts to leave someone you love, but for her she had enough burden to handle, and she knew that she deserve someone better than the guy.
When a song ends, you could just repeat it every time you like. When a movie ends, you could just wait after the trailers, to start it again. When the rain ends, sure it’ll come back soon. But when special moments have gone, you don’t even know if you can rewind it, repeat it, or hope for it to happen again. There’s nothing in this world as precious as time, because nothing in this world in PERMANENT.

know her

(This was my final exam. for Campus Journalism)

                   She was 10 years of age when her parents got separated because of the mistress of her father. It was around the month of July when her father caught by her mother cheating.
                 Upon looking at her you can’t notice any problem, right? But you don’t know what are the problems and criticism behind that perfect smile.
                  Every time she wants to cry she just goes to the bath room and cry in a silence so that no one would notice her pain. She’s much afraid of letting her weakness be seen in the public because as far as the other people knew about her, she’s a tuff girl ready to face everything.
                 Once she said “I know some people don’t like me! They hate the way; I do things, the way I act, the way I deal with others! But you know what? Darn what they think of me? I will do whatever I want and do what I think right. THIS IS ME! My life! My rules! My styles!
                  Because I’m a real person and not a darn imitator.” These are the hard words she said every time she hears false rumors about her because some people judge her the way she dressed and talk not knowing the real her.

Unfair

UNFAIR is when I had given my best BUT still got left behind

UNFAIR is when I had been true to him but all I got were LIES & FALSE PROMISES

UNFAIR is when I choose him over everybody else BUT still he choose another over me

UNFAIR is when I never asked him to stay BUT he promised, he would YET later on, walked away

UNFAIR is when he moved on & I was left stranded

UNFAIR is when someone somes along again BUT my heart is too afraid of getting hurt AGAIN. ;(